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Blaine Larsen - How Do You Get That Lonely this song makes me Thank God I wasn’t the name under the football score, that I survived the time period where I thought having no life at all was better than the life I had.

I thank God and my friends, who were there for me that I didn’t follow through with the knife on my wrist, lived through the many car wrecks I was in when I didn’t care if I lived or died, lived through all the hill jumping and flying down roads at 110+ mph, and the list goes on on all the things I did when I didn’t care if I lived or died. Luckily for me I never turned to illegal drugs or alcohol (I did drink some but never addicted to it).

Thank God, I lived to see the love I deserve with my husband, 3 kids, and so far 3 grandkids.