January 16, 1994

This is the second dream that we talked about our feelings and our relationship and both times were good maybe it’s telling me to talk to him about them.

Our song TLCASAP was #27 on the 105.3 countdown today.

Anyway, I was supposed to see him at the game tomorrow night. Why does the weather mess everything up? Why? I love PRIMERO and it’s been four days of not hearing his lovely voice or seeing his tender body. It depends on tomorrow if it goes on to five days. I miss him so much, please let him call tomorrow at least if there’s no school maybe there’s no game and if there’s no game then there’s no plan for me to be there right.

I used to think and feel that there’s no way I could live that long without him, but I have last weekend, this weekend and Christmas weekend was all like that, and I’ve made it through them. Every long-term of not hearing or seeing him I get through it a little easier, but the minute he calls I really do get happier, I still miss him, but luckily dad has been home and my family and friend talk about him, which I would say keeps me going. When I don’t talk about him I go downhill. He always knows what and when to say something. Always there for me. Doesn’t that mean something.