October 9, 1993

Well it was eight days after the homecoming day that I was with Mikey again. Anna and I had went by the station before, but never saw him. I also learned his nicknames which was Hercules and toothless (I still call him that sometimes). I found that out on homecoming night. It was the parade for the festival that we met up with him again. The details are coming now.

Then we found a parking place where Mikey was close by. (We had seen him when we left to take Damian to work.) We were so hyper and we were laughing all the time. Mikey came over all the time, too. We were talking to him and we were all carrying on when Mr. Higgins came out of the high school. Mr. Higgins smiled at us and I told him to stay for the parade and he smiled and said, “no you know I don’t like that kind of stuff. Anyway it looks like you’re busy as it is anyway.” Then we all started laughing again and Mr. Higgins said, “see you Monday and be good.” Then we started laughing even harder and he said, “I know that’s so hard for you.” When he left Mikey asked, "are you sure you haven’t had anything to drink tonight". I said, “no I’m positive we have - let’s see what all have we had two cokes, a cup of tea, and don’t forget the water.” We all started laughing again.

Finally the parade started we were laughing the whole time and we were giving him candy and stuff (candy wrappers mainly.) The car we were selling tickets for got to hot and Mikey and us girls start laughing all over again.

When the parade was over, we waited for him. Anna was making fun of how he was directing traffic. He was dancing she said. Then he had us move the Road blocks and Anna didn’t understand what he wanted done so I went over to help. It was so funny.

When we left, we had just seen Mikey get in the police car for a ride up to the station. Then we followed him and I had this weird feeling so I turned into the doctors office to bug Mikey some more, well to find out his car was parked in that same parking lot and he was walking toward us. Was it fate, was it just supposed to happen, or did it just happen.

He came over to my car window and we were eating runts. We asked him if he wanted any of them and he said, “Sure, I’ll take the cherries I love cherries.” I knew what he was getting at because we had been joking about that up at “Anna and my corner”. So I said “well, personally I like the bananas better.” He said, “any girl with their cherry is fine with me.” And I said, “Anna give me all the greens.” We were all joking around but I was still nervous about it then he started looking for his keys. Checking in each pocket to find them. Then he looked in the car all the time we were joking with him about everything. He said, “I locked my keys in my car, can you guys bring me to my house.” I looked at Anna and said, “For Anna.”

Then he got into the car, which was the seat behind me and believe me I was more scared than I ever have been before. I said, “I guess this means you need me to take you back.” Then he said, “that would be nice.”**12/16/93 - I still wonder if he ever locked his keys up, because on 11/20/93 he told me he didn’t lock his car. I’ll ask him some time.

Then I got scared and I couldn’t get my car started he put his hand on my shoulder and of course I jumped, but first I slapped him and jumped turning myself all the way around in my seat.

Finally, I started driving, nervous of course. I mean I had a uniform police officer in my car. Before I knew it he was putting his hands on Angie’s knee and she screamed. He did it a lot; needless to say, even if it wasn’t me I still got even more scared. I was terrified. I didn’t go right away at a stop sign and he put his hand on my shoulder the second time I almost started crying, but I held my tears back. My stomach felt like it was going to explode.

Then he did it a third time and kept saying drive like you normally do. I looked over at Anna and she said, “don’t you even think about it.”

Finally we got to his house and he went inside. I was so scared so I talked to Anna and Angie about it with tears in my eyes. Luckily he got a family phone call, because then we got to talk about what I was feeling at the time.

I also was too far into the highway and stopped another police officer from going on, which made me have to move my car. Anna wouldn’t let him ride in the front because she knew how nervous I was and how he was. And she told me that he wasn’t the right police officer to get rid of my nervousness and that he cheats on his wife. That got me even more scared. Angie moved over so that Mikey could sit behind Anna’s seat instead of mine.

Finally he came and started to come to my side he got in the right place. I said, “I had to move the car because another police officer had to stop.” He told me that he figured something like that would happen because I was almost on the highway.

When he had gotten in the car at the house, he put his hand on my shoulder and I yelled, “quit it.” Then he left it there and I said, “please stop it,” almost in tears. Then we got on the highway and he said “drive like you normally would and turn down the radio.” I said, “you told me to drive like I normally do, right?” So I turn my radio up as loud as it could go. He said, “OK turn it down.” Then we were talking about speed limits and he said he didn’t know. Angie had to scream at least five times each trip.

Then we drove around the police station and Mikey was getting mad because he told me not to and he slapped me on my shoulder. Then I saw Terry and I pulled over and talked to him and explain that he got locked out of his car and that Terry was going to kill himself if he didn’t quit that smoking. He started to say something involving me and I shook my head, which he got the point. Mikey kept saying “can we go now.” Then Terry said, “well we have to go.” So I brought Mikey to his car and he got out and open up his car. Then we asked him if he wanted any more cherries and he said as many as he could get so Anna got them and I said, “let me have the green.”

He smiled at me and hit me in the shoulder. Then he got into the car and I backed up and stopped. At first I wasn’t for sure if he would look back because he started to back up. Then he did and he pointed his finger at me and we left.

03/27/2003 — why was I so blind? All I would have had to do was reread this over and over and over again and know exactly what kind of a SOB he was going to turn out to be. All he ever did was think of himself, and I should have known that by this day alone. How stupid can one person be. I’m so glad I have my now Michael and don’t have to find anybody else. I was so stupid. I hope other women don’t fall for the same stupid no good for nothing SOB I did. Of course I know they will and that won’t be my fault, or would it?

05/31/2021 — Although I still wish I had reread this page over and over again. I also know stupidly wasn’t the word for it. I was young and maybe even naïve, but it was not my fault on what all he ended up putting me through. He was the adult and any good 45 year old police officer would have never talked to 16 year olds like this. Any good police officer, would not have continued the jokes or touching someone who clearly told him to quit it or in Angie’s case screamed. However, he kept touching us on that trip to and from his house. So many red flags in that day alone, but I’m also looking at it through the eyes of adult — one that is almost as old as he was when he did this. It’s common since that he was not being professional or being a good police officer — now that I look back, but I was only 16 at this time and honestly believed that it was my past that was causing all the fear when I was around him or when he would touch me that day.