JayCee's Story and Healing Process

I have added a table of contents with links to each post to help in guiding your way through the story and healing process. Reminder this is a work in progress and will take some time to get the entire experience typed and uploaded. There are 2000 (give or take) written pages in the journal from October 1993 to August 1995 plus the healing journals on off throughout the years. Names and places have been changed in the blog to protect those involved. 

I was sexually exploited by a police officer and will share my journal from 1993 to 1995. I experienced a lot of things within the almost 2 years of knowing Mikey. During this time, he groomed me for a sexual relationship, that ended up including sexual abuse, sexual assault, attempted rape, Police Sexual Violence, physical abuse, and emotional abuse. There was a time where I honestly thought he loved me and I loved him -- when I first came across AdvocateWeb in 2003, someone suggested reading the following article and replacing Clergy with police officer and it really helped me with the starting of my healing. During my journal blogs I will also reflect on how I healed through the years and also pointing out the RED FLAGS that something was wrong. I was only 16 when I met Mikey and he was a 45 year old police officer. Some may decide to blame the victim, but I'm hoping to give enough resources and education that when you leave this sight you not only know why the Abuser is at fault, but also how to spot the red flags and relationship that is motived by sexually exploitations. My experience involved a police officer, but needless to say, it could be a teacher, pastor, counselor, doctor etc. (anyone who has authority and power over the individual.) For more information on these kinds of relationships please go to  advocateweb.org.